Soshiland

Calling out

2010-05-03T00:29:00.011+08:00

"Every morning this forest path swells with a river of people like me –shifty dreamers– streaming through the trees. We’re bobbing noses and ears, living bodies of goals. Rushing. Running. Racing. We’re together, side by side, and yet, worlds away in our own minds struggling through the last mile.

I let you analyze me. You picked me apart and left the pieces for someone else. 'You're broken', you said. Cold, erudite -yes. But I'm not dead. Through my weakness I find that I'm growing stronger every day. I'm learning to admit my wrongs, rather than indulge my faults as eccentricities. You'd barely recognize me."

I want you back, you back

2010-05-01T10:17:00.006+08:00

Oh my god I never knew I had an undeleted blogspot online!!!!!!!! As such, I shall replace my dead plurk.com to this site hahahaahahah yay me! :)

2009-08-23T13:53:00.001+08:00

Goodbye blogger.

Always keep the faith

2009-08-09T18:49:00.004+08:00

Hi bby I love you. Forever & Always. :)

Your biggest fan

2009-08-06T20:01:00.001+08:00

"They don't even know what it is to be a fan. Y'know? To truly love some silly little piece of music, or some band, so much that it hurts."

2009-08-03T19:37:00.000+08:00

Hi blogger bye blogger

2009-08-01T17:21:00.001+08:00

I dont need any reasons as to why I love TVXQ.

2009-07-31T17:49:00.002+08:00

SM vs YG

2009-07-26T13:23:00.002+08:00

I find it funny how YG fanclubs can be so united and cooperative whereas SM fanclubs are like, all over the place. I find it funny how YG fanclubs are smart enough to know how every band in the same entertainment needs each other and how their support is vital to keep the entertainment going whereas SM fanclubs are just perhaps mostly made up of all the most selfish and uncooperative people in the world. They only cared about their own ~perfect~ ~flawless~ band. Sad how 3/4 of the bands I love are in SM. I'm not saying I'm perfect either. I have an obvious bias towards these bands but the least I could do was to support or love the entertainment as whole. I dont know, you think about it. Without the bond or friendship they have with each other in the entertainment, will your ~perfect~ ~flawless~ band ever be where they are now? I dont know, how much more do these people want their beloved bands to emphasize their friendship/bond with the others? Well I guess fans will be fans. Selfish, just so fucking selfish it makes me sick. Yeah, I'm pretty selfish myself. If I weren't selfish I'd give up all my pocket money and choose spending it all to help in charts, not spend it on food. And if I weren't selfish I'd run to Korea/Japan to support them. Not wishing they'd come here someday.

Just needed to let this out. Been on my mind for awhile already. & Yeah wtv I'm pretty disgusted myself at how much I care for these people.

Letting you go

2009-07-19T13:49:00.000+08:00

Because I love you, Because I have to
Because you have all of my heart
I hate to let you go, thats what my heart says
But I have to let you go

I love kpop

2009-07-19T09:57:00.003+08:00

i hate being labelled in the same category as kpop trenders. gtfo kpop if youre simply into it bcos of their looks.

I love you

2009-07-19T09:23:00.008+08:00

In life, there's no such things as Heroes. Or Prince Charmings.

2009-07-18T17:40:00.001+08:00

lalala

Fanfic 01

2009-07-18T11:30:00.007+08:00

Title: A moment of pride
Pairing: JeTi
Summary: "she just didnt know what to do"
Writers' note: Sorry for the failed language. Hope you understand the storyline. Will write more of these and from a variety of pairings too. :)

She was always the one to confide all her problems to the other. Only she knows how behind those cold, brave front, she was actually a weak person. She wasn't as strong. She couldn't handle too much and only to her, that she'd put aside her pride and let loose the softer side of herself. But right now, this wan't the case. The girl who've been protecting her, assuring her that everything's gonna be fine, whose shoulders were ready for her to cry on; had her own problems. She thought that after all the trust they had, she could turn back to her but she was wrong. The moment she started crying to her, all the other did was to snap at her, shrieked "yah! why are you like this? you werent this weak, stop crying, go away" She was startled. She was shocked. She was cursing under her breath, regretting those times she've been the one to be there for her. She cried to herself at the corner of her room, silently, and hoping noone else would know that she cried other than that bitch, who she felt cheated of their trust. "Fuck you Sooyeon, fuck you" she cursed in english as her tears flooded her face. Little did she know that that bitch, was actually crying herself to sleep. She actually knew what happened to her. She wanted to help, she wanted to be there for her, she just didnt know what to do or how to make her feel better. She isnt the type to show how much she care or love someone. It was a moment of pride and needless to say, she regretted it. /

Hurt

2009-07-17T21:41:00.005+08:00

Being an unknown international fan is just too tough. It hurts so damn fucking much, but you just cant help feeling so happy for them. So so happy. So glad. But you keep crying. And you dont know why. You just know its got something to do with them.

Hwang Miyoung

2009-07-17T17:03:00.004+08:00

"As you've heard from Isak for the past two days, Fany's been feeling "under the weather lately and her feelings are hitting home."
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Yesterday she mentioned that her personal life hasn't been quite well either.
I've been worried since Shimshim Tapa that the girl is getting overworked and etc. Especially that her voice strains easily. Now that there's something about her personal life that we don't know about, all of us should put her and the girls in our prayers. That our Fany will get better, and the eye-smiling days will come back. Let's show support in all the ways possible. Fany, fighting! You got this"

I dont know, if antis were to know about this it'd prolly make their day or something but for me, this was really worrying/disturbing/saddening and for the matter I almost cried over this. And as I'm typing this, I just cant stop tearing. This girl, is one I respect so much because despite her flaws, she never failed to stay optimistic and keep smiling as though everything was alright. Its through her that I told myself, "no matter what happens, dont stop smiling cos everything will be better sooner or later anyway". I dont even know how she did it but for a person who lost her mother during her teens, a person hated by quite a number of antis, to smile was just.. too strong; to amazing. Her determination to be the source of energy for people, to be a singer who can bring more life to people.. this girl is rlly, rlly amazing. I've never thought of her to be this respectable and she was never one of my favourite back then but after knowing her and the rest of the girls, I just cant help but to love and respect them, to go through shits with them, to mature and learn from their human flaws. I guess back then I do keep mentioning on how she havent been the same old happy girl lately and true enough, she's been having personal life problems. I'm sure glad she've got her best friend forever (aka my otp you shld know who) by her side and of course, the other 7 girls who will always be there for her.

I hope they win tonight. The only reason why I wanted them to win so badly and why I couldnt help but feel overjoyed seeing them win was because this girl's aim was to beat their 9-win record which should happen. I just didnt want her career to add on to her problems. She've enough problems and this post is dedicated to her; Tiffany Hwang Miyoung and everyone in this world should know better than being too judgemental and learn to love this girl bcos she's amazing, no joke.

Pictures of you

2009-07-11T21:12:00.003+08:00

"And we clutch that picture to our hearts because we expect each other to always be the people in that picture. But people change. People aren't pictures. And you can either take a new picture or throw the old one away."

Pictures of you

2009-07-09T22:12:00.001+08:00

"Falling in love should be like polaroids"

Loving you

2009-07-09T19:35:00.002+08:00

“Loving you is the second best thing I have done,
finding you was the first.”

What's love again?

2009-07-08T22:59:00.002+08:00

I wish I could be your shield and protect you, taking away every pain you felt by those words hurled at you. Dont lie, you're human, you're not strong, you care, you cry over it, you got hurt and I, I cant do anything to help you feel better. And if there's one thing I'd trade my happiness with, is for your happiness. All of you. Be it the boys, be it the girls. It pains me how everyday I could go on a bitch post spree trying my best to give you more justice. They wont understand the importance and the need of each other, they wouldnt care less about how you'd have felt, but trust me that there's at least one person, this fucking useless person typing this, who actually cares.

I love you

2009-07-05T14:50:00.004+08:00

You're so in love that you act insane

And thats the way I loved you ♥

Like the stars shining up above

2009-07-01T02:20:00.000+08:00

One thing I learned while I was sneaking into my favourite one true pairing's thread for a while today was that: quality > quantity. Ive always had that in mind for almost as long as I live but to learn that there are others who agree with me or even, have the same thoughts with me (even though my theory of quality > quantity is somehow based on life) makes me happy. There's so much to learn from all of them and from all those who loved them, and I guess that makes me appreciate these people more.

Speaking of the ninja one true pairing:
"I'm really awed/amazed at their friendship. I wonder if something happened before that made them drift for a while in the beginning. I guess its true when they say the 9 months bonded them, allowed them to get to know each other more. Cos right now it seemed to me what she blurted out that day was true. Her best friend, close friend, was indeed her. Now I'm more convinced that they put up the "everyday they changed best friends" thing to not hurt other members? Haha thats really cute. But unless your oblivious to things, there's prolly too much reasons why these two are closest of friends. Perhaps the language or them living in the states previously made their friendship something more special than with the rest. Of course the best friendship ever was the bond they have as a team but I believe that in every team, there are cases that your confidante, is just one of them. And that applies for both of them, yes? Lol I just needed to say this. Cos I'm thankful that one of them that seemed reaaaally downcasted and quiet these days is feeling better after countless failed attempts to cheer her up by the other. Now skinships doesnt matter to me anymore. Skinships arent the reason to why these two are special anymore. Its their obvious care for each other, the obvious understanding towards each other. Amajing, yeaaaaaaaaah." -@ flubberduckkaye/220609

(Random anonymous fandom/life related posts going on here in the future.)